Tranny in 2003

Created: May 8th, 2026

I was born in 2003. Sometimes I wonder what life would have been like had I been born just 10 years later. I am also grateful that I wasn't born 10 years earlier.

The current timeline

At the time of writing, I am 22 years old. This means that the covid-19 pandemic occured throughout my time in highschool. More specifically, the lockdowns first started during spring break in my sophomore year. Everything went back to 'normal' during my senior year. However, everything had changed. What I mean is that everybody--even the normal people--were much more 'internet-brained'. For someone like me, the lockdowns didn't change me much since I would have been on the computer regardless. It was basically a super extended spring break.

Regardless, there were real-life femboys in my school after the lockdowns. Most likely inspired from the internet during the lockdown period. And yes, I imagine that it is probably very embarassing for those people to remember. For me though, I had only thought of something like a femboy or a trans person to be an internet thing and only something to be laughed at (there were a lot of memes about it). At first I didn't like the concept of a real trans person, because well, I was taught that something like that is unnatural from a young age. But over the coming years I went through a sort of progression, ultimately ending up as a trans person myself. I credit this to the steadily increasing presence of, and new friendships with other trans people. The point I'm trying to make is that being exposed to real people who were trans helped me see that it wasn't just a meme or a joke, but something that I could do.

Before coming to my trans conclusion, I went through a few 'baby-steps'. I'd say the hardest step was being ok with being gay (I like guys, idk). Once I accepted this, the rest came quickly because I wasn't so worried about being thought of as lesser or different anymore. I had already separated myself from the norm. It's a much smaller gap to cross to go from gay to trans than compared to 'normal' to trans in my opinion.

VRChat was the place where I was able to explore all of this. VRChat became a much bigger thing during the covid-19 lockdowns, and it became the place where I would meet new friends. This is the place where I made my first friends who were trans. Overtime, like I explained, I was able to slowly transition and accept myself. VRChat is an amazing place to experience this, since you can separate yourself from your physical body and focus on what you find yourself to be in your mind. It's also where I found my first boyfriend (dating is hard when you aren't really yourself).

Online guides and experiences also helped me quite a lot. There was a guide for most everything. And, of course, having a guide shows you that transition is possible.

So, in the end (or beginning), I decided to take a leap of faith and start taking hormones when I was 21/22 years old (I started slightly before my 22nd birthday). I'm very grateful that I started and I wouldn't go back (I've been on hormones for 10 months). However, I am still facing the fact that hormones won't solve all of my issues. Puberty really is just irreversible. I also take time to appreciate that I could have started later, which would mean that there would be a lesser effect. I don't mean to dishearten people who started at a later age, perhaps we all have a wish that we started earlier.

If I were born in 2013

I wonder what life would be like if I were instead born in 2013 (assuming that I had the same parents/family etc). That would make me just 12 years old now. I pick this time period specifically because puberty hit me very quickly as a child. By the time I was 13-14 I had grown to be six feet tall. I'd say, if I ever had a chance of passing by default, I had to have started very early: age 12. Of course, when I was 12 my parents would have never allowed me to start something like that. I also highly doubt that in this alernate timeline my parents, who would also be 10 years younger, would be open-minded enough to ever accept something like that.

Even with that in mind, I would have grown up in a world that had far more trans people in public. I could have spent much less time coping as somebody I'm not. Growing up can be hard enough, and understanding that I am a trans person would be difficult. But at least I could put a word on what I was feeling. I would have had to avoid my parents, but I kept secrets from them growing up anyways.

I suppose the real reason why I theorize about this timeline is so that I can mentally pretend what it would have been like to grow up as a girl and not a guy. Passing wouldn't really be an issue, and I would have made friendships that were far more fulfilling.

I'm simply wishing that the world could have seen me for who I want to be. Now, I can do a lot to try and get close, but I will never truly physically match how I feel. That's not to mention all the time that I feel like was wasted.

If I were born in 1993

There's not much point in imagining what could have been, since there is nothing any of us can do to change it. So I will instead appreciate what my birthdate has given me.

If I were born in 1993, I would be 32 today. It's to my understanding that trans representation and acceptance has been growing over the years. I can imagine that it would have taken me much, much longer to accept myself. Now I can only theorize, but I'd imagine that it would take me until the covid-19 pandemic to reach acceptance, similar to the current timeline. Only this time, I would have been in my late 20's/early 30's. This would, of course, heighten my current concerns and feelings about my transition.

It's a well known fact that the older you are, the harder it gets to physically transition. I would be left wondering what it would have been like to transition in my early 20's. I would wonder what life could have been throughout that time too.

I guess it's important to appreciate what we have. If I had been born in 1993, then I could have made a post instead that theorized about what life would have been like in 2003. And I would have been grateful that it wasn't 1983. This process could go further: 1983, 1973, 1963....

What we are left with?

I don't mean to discourage anybody who isn't very young (under 18). I don't regret starting my transition. I'm simply trying to express that it is a good thing that we are heading into greater trans acceptance (we aren't quite there yet, but it's getting better year by year). I'm glad that fewer and fewer trans people will go through the opposite puberty.

For the rest of us, we just have to accept it I guess. Personally, I don't regret transition at all. I would actually be very upset if I was forced to stop taking the hormones. But I still get upset when I think about something like my height (6' 1"). It is, like many things of testosterone puberty, unchangable. Sure, tall girls exist, but they are very rare. It feels like I must perfectly pass in all other aspects to make up for it.

Sorry, I might be a bit of a doomer. Personally, I'm holding out for a future where science lets us become whatever we want to be. That's how I'm coping for now.

Good luck girlies! =^_^=

<3 Ashley